Day 3---Yeah Day 2 Went on a VACATION FACED A BULLY X2

Yep I went up 1foot....I stood up for myself!!  I finally squarely stood up to all those who are cutting me down.  One person actually had the same idea as my dad they thought if they belittle me then that would MAKE ME want to change....told her the complete opposite.  Her being a BULLY in the whole sense.  She took great offense to being called a BULLY but that is what she was and still is.  She didn't come out and actually say "I am sorry!" but that is why she is still a BULLY.  We sat and talked for about 30 minutes today.  Cleared the air about alot of things, but she still doesn't realize her words are FIERCE!!!

Facing a bully today gave me the strength to keep head up.  I talked with my MINI-ME today, miss her beyond words, She is doing her own "mini Biggest loser" things....She weighed in and went through that whole You started out at...... and you are now at.....(Allison watch it...She is coming after ya!!)  She is at my mom's for now...She went there weighing 145lbs.....she has lost 10lbs in one month....WOOOHOOOO!!!  She was telling me she told her cousin Ashley to stop calling her names about her weight....That hurt her feelings, they talked about name calling and feelings too so PROUD of her.

Being kind and nice to people is what we need.  I am hopefully raising my children to treat people equally and without judgment, not completely but hope enough that they wouldn't want to be judged either by others.  Everyone needs to think about what they are saying to others, but in fits of anger or frustration, we do.....LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THYSELF!!  That keeps sticking in my mind. 

Tonight is short....I am jello-legged and mushy mind....will continue more tomorrow.

"One Step, One path, One Road, One Trail, One Valley, One Mountain to Climb to Get to the PEAK of You!"

Day One Starting @ 7956ft above sea level

Today starts a day that I am eagerly grasping and scared out of my mind for.  I know I am not on this struggle or journey by myself. I have the AWESOME support from not my family in blood, but my family in Technology.  My Twitter/Facebook/Blogging family.

Many may ask why I have 7956ft above sea level....that is where I am at in my life  Buena Vista, CO.  I have started alot of things here including the start of really struggling with my weight.  We (being my mom, stepdad #1, my 2 brothers) moved back to the place where my grandparents lived and mom grew up.  That was 1982...7th grade...I was crushed leaving all my Friends but I had family here.  I wasn't considered "fat" by any means looking back at hte pictures, but anyone knows the 80's especially the early 80's YEAH...I would be considered fat.  Boy did I know that when I walked in for the first day of 7th grade...yes was teased and tortured from day one, so that is where the start of retreating into myself.  I played a great act even to this day at times.  No one deserved to be teased and told they wouldn't amount to anything NO MATTER what they look like.  It is rough when you are 12/13yr old and just moved into a new town, not really knowing anyone.  The best thing was my Uncle, most popular guy in the middle school, was in 8th grade and talked to me more then once with alot of people especially the girls around....Helped a bit but he kept me and keeps me going still.  He is more a big brother.

Fast Forward 29 yrs.  The same group of people who would tease me and torture me about my weight even when I was 190lbs senior year in high school...1988, have been another source of encouragement....can you believe that??  When I announced I was doing the Casting Call for Biggest Loser Season 12 on my Facebook I cringed I seriously cringed. The support I got from my old classmates was very encouraging.....guess they did care....LOL

I have needed to get alot out in the open to really start this journey.  Not everything I can share right now, need to work up the strength....hahaha 

This journey doesn't only include me....my 2 beautiful children whom I would do anything for and I mean anything!!

My Princess  My Mini-Me  Emily Renee

My favorite pic of my son Tyler Stephen, tuckered out baseball player/Iron Chef Wannabe... this pic is older but it's a "normal" pic

My mom made the comment the other day I needed a man in my life....Told her If I wanted 3 kids I would of had 3 kids....SORRY ALL MY GUY FRIENDS....LUV YA!!  I am fine just us 3.  I can't make it without them and their smiles and hugs and yes their yelling, screaming, hitting, fighting, throwing too....They are the reason I live and breathe.....Now I just want to live and breathe better.

GOAL is in 2 yrs I will be climbing a 14er with my Sister, brother-in-law, brother & sister-in-law...oh yeah plus kids....I can't now but I will then.

"One Step, One path, One Road, One Trail, One Valley, One Mountain to Climb to Get to the PEAK of You!"